Yesterday, I wore a suit I haven't worn in 9 years. That's exciting and I'm pretty happy about it. Thing is, no one else noticed. I remember thinking someone would say something, but no one did. Did that make it less than exciting for me? Maybe.
One of the biggest problems of losing weight is the idea that it will make you a different person. If I get to a certain size or wear different clothes, will people think more of me? Will it change my personality? Will my problems go away? Will I stop battling with my weight? Nope.
I'm at a place now where I have to keep my focus on why I'm doing this. It's easy to say the only reason I'm doing this is for my health, but that wouldn't be true. I'm doing it because I want to wear "normal" sizes and shop in any store for clothes. I want people to see the real me without my weight getting in the way.
Right there - that's it. I want people to see me differently because I don't like what they see now.
That thought process is a VERY dangerous path. There's a great article from Sparkpeople about this issue, "The Secret to Loving Your Body Isn't Losing Weight" In the article the author says the only way she became happy was by accepting herself, fat or thin. Instead of weight loss being the point of pride, she takes more satisfaction in exercise. Hmmm. Maybe I should give that a try.
I hope you're exercising and I hope you're loving yourself wherever you are.